I have not had a lot of time to blog. I am trying really hard to reach my goal of writing a book this year, and I won't lie, it has been hit of miss. Some nights I can't seem to stop to go to sleep and other nights nothing seems to come. It doesn't help that the other night I was hit with inspiration for yet another story that I have no idea where it will go, and I had to stop working on the regular one to get that one on paper.
Anyway, James and I have been sick all week. And frankly, I am sick of it. I want out of this house!
I have also been thinking a lot about pregnancy and babies and all of that. Mostly because a lot of my small audience is pregnant, just had a baby, just lost a baby...
I am wondering at what point I just need to accept that with only one ovary, I am going to have to have help, if I am even able to have another one. Then some days I don't know if I want another one (these are infrequent and usually when James has done a lot of screaming). James and I were just looking through his scrapbooks. I can't believe how small he was, and how much fun it was to watch him discover his world. It didn't help my train of thought. Part of my problem, of course, is that I just don't want to talk to the doctor. I am pretty sure that they will want me to do self-injections, and frankly, if that is my option, maybe I should look into adoption...
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we've been sick at our house too. it's a drag for sure. sorry about the baby thing. it's definitely hard to decide how big a family to have when getting pregnant isn't easy or an option. Hope you come to a decision that makes you happy. There are lots of great things about having just one, too!
Liz Edwards
It wouldn't hurt to look into adoption. The more we learn about it, the more comfortable we are with it (especially Adam). And Liz is right, there are lots of benefits to having just one. You can afford to travel, getting babysitters is easier, one college tuition, one wedding.... I hope you find what's right for your family and if you have any adoption questions, send them our way.
Oh Brooke, I know just how you feel. It sucks. But when I started the process it wasn't as bad as I thought. Like all of these crappy things, you just find a way through it. And seriously, the shots are SUPER easy. I did them for months, and I guarantee you they're less painful than mosquito bites. Originally I would rather adopt than do the doctor stuff, but it was just what was right for us at the time. If you have questions about the doctor process (or want good recs), I'm totally here for you.
Brooke-
sorry about the affects of the poem. It touched me so much I was doing some crying of my own. I know you've been through so much more than me and I have just a little bit more understanding of that now.
I hope you guys can feel right about the decision that you eventually make.
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